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I'm not really sure where to put this so I'm just gonna put this here because it's tmi, but I have no one to talk to about it so I feel like I can say it here when I was younger I was raped by my brother.

It took me a long time just to get him out of my life because I was afraid of what he would do because of the threats that he made to me when I was younger. No one around me believes me I did not press charges I still have not pressed charges because we were basically alone now the only person that was there is now dead.

So here I am. yesterday was his birthday and I have kids that I don't want him to be around. But my parents insist that I'll be around him because they think that because he was only 17 and I was 13. It means that he Didn't understand what he was doing. Clearly a 17 year old Is capable of understanding what rape is and that it is wrong.

The threats made it clear that he knew what he was doing.

I've took therapy and I was on antidepressants but I stopped taking them because they make me feel like it wasn't enough. Without them I didn't need them as much as when I was on them I felt like I needed more to cope.

I'm having issues with this on whether I want to go to the law in all because all we have one year left to take it to court.

I just feel like it would be more hassle and more embarrassment that I had the day after when I told my mom and dad and I was shunned by the whole family.

I don't need advice I just want some company.

My brother is the type of person who talks about hurting people all the time but no one believed me and it's just really hard to cope with when everyone keeps on bringing him up and I've already told them I don't want to talk about him.

I just hope that someone's reading this and maybe someone will reply so I don't feel so alone, you don't have to, but it would be nice to hear from someone.