Ever feel like you want it too bad?

I've been feeling extremely discouraged lately. We're coming up on a year of ttc and to be honest I'm okay with that cause this sometimes takes time AND I'm freaking out inside I'm sure you know the inner battle. Today I've been an emotional disaster like I've been in control but also weepy? Weird emotional control issues means pt time. It's been such a long unwarranted sad day that I cant decide if theres a line or not. 😭🤷‍♀️ I've decided to just test again in a few days...when I'm not a wreck because aniexty is a war not battle.