Overwhelmed I am breaking

Sorry it’s very hard for me to break down and give in because I am always strong and I believe to be mentally and emotionally strong and level headed. I couldn’t talk to anybody around me cause they always say it’ll be okay or it’s just a phase or think I’m being over dramatic. My husband is not so much a source of comfort cause I constantly have to repeat my feelings to him and he understands for like a day and it goes back to how things was before. I never got to properly heal mentally emotionally or physically even really after having my daughter a month ago. Almost everyday I had to be out first week everyday back and forth to the hospital for bilirubin for her high level of jaundice then in between doctors appointments, other appointments, going to do laundry cause our washer is broken at the moment. I cook , I clean, I spend time with my 4 year old son helping with homework assignments in between caring for our daughter who wants me all the time cause she is used to me and not being with her dad much. So I’m busy with the kids and any and every time I leave the house I take them with me or my daughter when my son is in school. I don’t get time to just me. I am now bleeding extremely heavy and my legs and back is in so much pain I have a extreme migraine that I can’t seem to shake. I am in the bed silently crying as I lay next to my babies just comfort my son from having a nightmare and just feeding my daughter I’m exhausted but I won’t give in I have to take care of my kids but I not okay and I think it’s okay to say I’m not okay .my husband walked in on the phone with his homeboy and didn’t even acknowledge I was laying there in pain assuming I was sleep but just not acknowledging me at all just left out on the phone. I’m burnt out 😌

Sorry just felt like I had a listening ear and had to let it out. Thank you for those who read