So it all started a few weeks ago, I’m currently 36 weeks pregnant with my third bubba. We have been together for over 10 years now so quite comfortable doing anything for each other.

After we had sex one night, I got braxton hicks and knew it could happen more often after we had sex from that point on. My fiancé and I talked about taking it easy, which, yeah cool, he works 10 hour days anyways so by the end of the day we are both buggered. So weekends was our family time and night time was our us time, just one night where we could be close.

For a few weekends he went out and we didn’t have sex at all, so I made it clear that I wanted that one night for just us. All fair enough, as it was our only chance to chill together and be intimate. But more and more he started falling asleep early or being on his phone till well after I fell asleep.

I tried not to think about it too much but the past two weeks it started sitting in the back of my head. Being third bubba my belly has gotten huge so quick and I needed help shaving down there, which he has always been fine to do in the first place if I had a big day and didn’t feel up to it.

But he kept ‘forgetting’ or promise to do it and then fall asleep. I got the feeling he didn’t want to even go near me down there anymore. We were still having sex but not the same, sometimes just ‘quickies’ that would get me psyched up for more later on that never actually came about. I told him how it felt like he was avoiding me sexually but he reckons it was just me being emotional.

So then I took the kids to my parents place last night as we are very close and mum and I have movie nights. He was chilling at home having a quiet night without us there. Well, it ended with a bad night sleep for me with a bad dream where he dumped me. It got to me pretty bad cause I messaged him straight away telling him he better not ever dump me after all we have been through.

So straight away I was emotional this morning. Then he sends me a snap with him playing with himself. I’m like, ok, I’ve been feeling down and crappy about not having sex with you and you send me that like it would do anything for me. He apologised but made it like I was making a fuss out of nothing.

After that all I could keep thinking is that he would rather get himself finished off than sleep with me cause I’m so fat and pregnant. It put me on the point of tears, so that when I got home I could barely look at him without wanting to ball my eyes out. I had to go to the shops to calm down.

It feels like we have lost so much of our intimacy and closeness. It makes me so sad and emotional, and I’m not sure if I’m overreacting in my pregnant state or not. I just want us to feel normal again and am worried it won’t happen until weeks after baby is born, which I would hate as our relationship was so happy and healthy, it felt like we were in the perfect place.

I understand it’s more awkward with my belly being so big but it also makes me feel like I repulse him or am unwanted. Sorry for the long saga, I just wanted to get it all off my chest and have everything explained as much as possible.