We found out we were pregnant with number 2 in September. Due date was May 20, 2019. However, in October, we found out our little baby no linger had a heart beat. I went on to have a D&C.

It was devastating. Our first child was a dream pregnancy, normal delivery, and is the light of our lives.

We’re coping with the loss, one day at a time. It’s so hard though when others around us are announcing. My coworker is due June of ‘19, my brother announced he and his wife are having their first June of ‘19, my close cousin and his wife contacted us today and said they’re due with their first May of ‘19.

All of these people who we love, who we have wanted to have kids for since they got married, now having babies who would have have been so close in age to our own. While they are delivering sweet little newborns, we will be burying ours (the hospital preserves the remains after a D&C and puts on two funerals a year; our peanut will be a part of the Spring burial).

How do you do this? How do I go on being so excited for others (because I truly am), even though my own envious heart hurts so much?! 💕😭👶🏻😍