Am I out?

Hey, so I am currently 11 days late for my period, I took a test the first day of my missed period and it looked positive but it was faulty, I tested yesterday with a digital and it said not pregnant, I’ve had extra discharge for about 2 weeks now, dull cramping here and there but more near my pelvic bone than by my belly button like with period cramps, I’ve had nausea especially in the morning and before I go to bed, my boobs have been swollen, I have had constant headaches since 9DPO, and I’ve been so bloated that I look like I could be 6 months pregnant lol, my mood has been everywhere, I’ve been needing to pee what feels like every 20 minutes, but defiantly more than I usually do, and I keep having these dreams where I am in labour but I wake up before “the baby is born” I am on ADHD pills, I take melatonin, and Seroquel but have been for almost 3 years, I already have an almost 2 year old, but don’t remember much from the first trimester, but with my first I didn’t get a positive until 7 weeks, but I only found out because my friend made me do a test with her. I feel defiantly pregnant, and all my friends tell me I’m eating for two and that it sounds like I’m pregnant, but I keep getting negative tests, my one friend didn’t find out she was pregnant until she was 5 months pregnant. I’ve been off birth control for 4 months, and my cycles are now 34 days long but this cycle is 45 already, my longest cycle was 57 days while on birth control. Could I be pregnant? Or am I just waiting for AF to show up? We have been TTC for 4 months already and my cycles went to 34 days the second month, I should have ovulated on the 19th, we had sex on the 4th, 8th, 13th, 18th, and 20th. I’m so confused on why I keep getting negatives, I just want to either get my positive or for AF to show up... any ideas? Or has anyone else been super late and not get a positive until days or weeks after AF was suppose to come? If I did get my period when I was suppose to then I should be getting another one on December 5th..