extra sensitive

as the months go on i'm starting to definitly beat myself up. from my SO consistently telling me he wants me to have his baby all the way down to him reminding me i would've been right behind my bestfriend (who's now 6 months pregnant) and i can't help but find myself feeling so negative and depressed. like a failure. like WHAT did i do wrong to miscarry the first baby. why me. why not the ones who don't try...... just one big fat WHY. i'm sorry ladies but i have nowhere else to vent