Gosh it's so depressing to see another negative test. I dont even want to try anymore, I dont want to look down and see that my Hope's and dreams have been crushed yet again. My family doesnt understand that I feel broken, I feel like less of a woman, I feel like the path God has me on doesnt lead me to having and raising a child and I dont understand why not. I just keep telling myself that one day I will see a positive, one day I will have a child, adoption is also an option but it doesnt seem to hurt any less.