I’ve really been struggling lately, I know that when it’s time it will happen for me. My SO and I have been TTC for 9 months now. I thought it would have happened by now for us. I’m 22, so the thought was “Oh I’m definitely fertile and this will happen in a breeze!” He’s 39 and has 1 child who is 8, so originally we thought that he would also have the ability to conceive. Neither of us have gone to the doctor yet because we want this to happen as naturally as possible, but lately I’ve been considering it. We have friends who seem to be announcing pregnancy left and right. As happy as I am for them, my heart sinks every time because I’m afraid it won’t happen for us. The only thing I’ve ever wanted is to have a family, now that I’ve found the person I want to share that with, my fear is, my dream won’t become a reality.

I really just needed to let this off my chest.

Yes I know I’m in an “age-gap” relationship, take your judgement somewhere else👌