Hi I need help making a decision because it is a big one.

I’m 21 in the military very far from home. I have no friends n no one close by but my husband who is also a soldier. We have been married a year and 1 month.

I’m now 5 months pregnant n yes he knows including my family and coworkers.

I’ve been very emotional since my pregnancy and angry mostly.

I feel like my husband has not been here for me at all. Right now he is dealing with the feeling of wanting to be alone n not wanting to answer to me. Wants to go out without being able to say anything to me about it. He says he is uncomfortable with me and can’t talk to me. He feels like I got worse when I got pregnant. He feels like it shouldn’t just be us needs other people n other things in his life. He is even drinking more hanging out more, leaving me more. One night I pulled up on him in a car with a girl at 12 am when he told me he was going to bed (at the time we weren’t staying together, it had only been a few days. The break lasted a week long and was intended to for him to have space). I don’t trust him n told him I don’t want to have female friends instead he wants to do it behind my back. I feel as though he doesn’t respect me and I’m to emotional right now to ignore what we are dealing with.

He asked me the other day can I just be his girlfriend not his wife or something not that serious because he wants me in his life but he wants to do what he wants to do with me saying anything to him. Goes out n I don’t know where he is, but he gets mad if I leave and he doesn’t know where I am which I’ve done once (he didn’t come home one night without notice and it upset me so when I came home from work that day I went for a walk). I’m trying to hard with him because of our child n the fact that I love him. I’m so emotional that I make excuses for him n came seem to just walk away. I’ve talked to him multiple times but all he doesn’t take me seriously either I’m to emotional or I’m playing a sympathy card of some sort. When we first met I was a jerk n didn’t pay him any mind. Honestly thinking back on it I don’t know why I did it to him but it didn’t last long. He chased me for 2 months before I took him seriously. N when I did I completely changed the person I was. I communicated more, told him were I was going if I was. Stopped having guy friend and stopped partying. I didn’t know how to act like a proper girlfriend before him so I learned with him n it was a fast adjust for me. Now I’m home a lot don’t talk to many people. I’m everything he was asking me to be. Now I talk to much, about anything including my feelings, now I always want him around and don’t want him having female friends, and don’t want him speeding cause he has got 6 tickets (maybe more). He uses who I use to be as a excuse to treat me bad now. I’m exhausted with this marriage and don’t know what else to do because I’m so depressed my life any shitty n I want to come home to something better then this. Should I just divorce him we would be great as friends because honestly without a title we would get along fine.