I can't even understand why God is putting me through this.. Me and my sons father have been broken up for almost a year.

A little background. Our relationship was so toxic it was depressing, I got pregnant 2 months after knowing him, and he's been controlling, extremely insanely insecure, mentally abusive, emotional, and sometimes physical.

But I also did my fair shares of wrong doings, when we would break up I would hang out with an ex of mine, and he would some how find out once we get back together. He would consider that cheating, even though we weren't together. Our relationship was so bad, I was battling, depression, and anxiety. It was so bad, I would take care of our son all by myself, with no help, nothing! He controlled everything I did, where I was, what I wore, etc. It was so bad I would walk with my head down when we were out in public, due to the fact that each time I would look up he would assume that I'm looking at another male. This man accused me of flirting with his 40 year old dad! He accused me of flirting with my Brother In Law! The list goes on and on..

Now it's been a year since I decided to leave this psycho.. And he continues to haunt my life.. But in the midst of all of this, I never stop him from seeing his son, my son loves his father, and I wouldn't keep him from his father. So Keep in mind it's been a year, so yes I'm dating now, I've been in 1 serious relationship since we have been broken up and it got to the point where I was comfortable enough to allow my son (who's 2 ) to meet my boyfriend, we went to Chuckee Cheese, and he finds out that my son met my boyfriend and he threatens to kill me. He drives by my house, playing loud music, then he will text me telling me to come outside, it got to the point where I got my parents involved, my dad is very protective about his daughters so he took this matter VERY serious.. But my dad also reassued me that he isn't going to kill me because, he knows what type of man he is, side note - my dad and my sons father used to be extremely close, my dad never knew of our true relationship, so he had no reason to hate him -

Anywho, he's threatening me telling me that it's gonna happen real soon, so me as a woman I'm very afraid, I'm scared, because parts of me doesn't know how capable this man is.. And that's what scares me. I've filled out a police report, the police said they'll look into it but who knows how serious they'll take it. but he continues to say extremely disrespectful things about me, and my family. Another side note! This man recently asked me to be a family again, and for us to try again! And I've repeatedly told him no!! So I guess because of my answer it leads to this..

Recently 3 days ago I started this new job, and my son isn't in school yet, so I need a baby sitter, so I asked my sons father, he agreed and we met at my job for him to pick my son up. I bought my son a tablet, for him to play games and watch Netflix, but also I have Instagram installed and I'm logged on (which i totally forgot) but while I'm at work i get messages from him and it was pictures that he took of my messages between me and some guys on his phone! keep in mind these conversations are not inappropriate! And some are from my ex! From months ago! I'm currently in a new very fresh relationship and my sons father decides to send those messages to my current boyfriend.. Which lead to us braking up 💔.. I'm so fed up. thank you guys for listening, i just needed to vent. There's so much on my heart because this man continues to ruin my life.

Prayers please!! 💞🤞🏾💞

This is him trying to be a family again 🙄👇🏾

Update: okay I will be going to the court house, tomorrow, to hopefully start the custody, and restraining order process. Thank you guys for your advice and help, I greatly appreciate it ❤️