Christmas

What can i get my guy “friend” for Christmas it’s complicated, we love each other but we’re not dating yet cause i live in France and he lives in the us and i’m not ready for an other relationship, anyways he’s sending me a sweatshirt of his and something else that he doesn’t want to tell me about he said he doesn’t want me to send him anything but i feel bad about it and he knows it, please help me out i don’t have a job so money is really not something i have please i really need help