soooooo. I am a senior in high school who is a virgin. I’m Othrodox and was grown in a strict environment, and once I got released I didn’t know, and still don’t, whether or not to have sex. I want to feel included with all the other teens. and I masturbate so I want to know how real sex feels. but I’m also afraid of losing my virginity to some stupid boy who I’ll never see again, or doesn’t know what to do. and I kind of want it to be special. I’m also incredibly insecure about my body: I feel chubby and have hair ALL over my body which I always hide.

I need tips. kind of about anything relating to this.