I’m going to admit I’ve been pretty promiscuous. But the thing is, it isn’t great. I’ve been with lots of different people and it’s way more pleasure for them and I honestly don’t care. I don’t like these men, barely know them, and I don’t get much of a good feeling from it. It’s dangerous but I don’t care? I have to think about really painful extreme stuff and it finally turns me on. But guys usually aren’t into that. Or I get scared or I just don’t go through through with it. I don’t think I enjoy sex with guys anymore. Or if I ever did. I’m in love with someone and I don’t even want to be touched by anyone ever again unless it’s her. Was I in the closet? Am I into girls and just never explored my interest? Why do I have sex with men when I don’t want to?