Trying but not trying.

My SO and I decided after alot of heartbreak from our recent loss that we arnt going to 'try' for a while. But this month, we were not very careful. And now I am late. Don't get me wrong, I'll be over the moon if I am pregnant. But we hardly even BD this month and I didn't track anything. My period is due today and has no sign of showing.

I'm scared to take a test though. Because if it's negative, I'll be upset and disappointed, even though we weren't actively trying, we still tried for 5 months before now, and on our fourth month, we lost our little angel at 7 weeks, it was devastating! We only knew about our child for 2 days before we lost him/her but we loved him/her so much and it was so hard on both of us.

Only 2 months later and I'm late again, hopefully this is our rainbow baby!

Baby dust to all! 🌌🌌👶💍