Anyone of you ladies have a difficult relationship with your mother? And is she narcissistic? How do you deal with her?

I'm 30 years old and have kept all my feelings in for the long, she managed to ruin all my relationships, (I dont blame her only for those relationships ending but she plays a huge role of them becoming bad). She constantly makes me feel like shit. She told my current boyfriend, if anyone say they love me with my current weight that that person doesn't truly love me. I'm very angry. And years of build up is on the verge of exploding. Yesterday she told me that she knows I dont love her and went on about others things.

I've written a letter to her that sums up my feelings for the past years, some things shes heard before, some things will be new...

But is it worth it? It's a lot more complicated than the bits I've shared. But this woman has really made my entire life one where I've always felt lost and dont belong, hurt, unwanted and unloved and uncapable of being loved.

Now she claims that I dont love my own daughter... is this reflections of her own feelings?