Dear the boy that I love , you don’t know I love you and you probably never will. I remember when we first met it was like yesterday ( even tho it was a year and some change ago ) we stayed up all night in the phone literally until 9 am and we fell asleep on the phone. At that time I didn’t really like you but we kept on speaking and then about 3 months later we fell off it was nothing major I kind of missed talking to you everyday but I got over it. About 2 months later your birthday came up I had a plan to say happy birthday just so I could talk to you. That’s when I knew I liked you but I never said anything ( STUPID RIGHTTT) well my plan worked and we started talking a lot more until about 2 months later we fell off again and I thought maybe it’s not meant to be ( I don’t know !!!) but I must of been wrong because about a month after we stopped talking we were right back at it again . I was the happiest person in the world but I didn’t tell you that I just played like I didn’t like you. Around August we were getting way to close and I do this stupid thing where I push people away because I’m scared I’ll get hurt or I’ll hurt them well when I did that I hurt you I didn’t mean to . I really did like you but after that incident nothing was the same I felt like a dummy and I still do . After August I sent you a paragraph in October but you left me on read eventually I felt your pain I felt your pain when I let you go the first time but yet I still haven’t said a thing and I still haven’t told you how I feel ! Well recently after a month of trying to get over you a new dude came in my life and made me realize I don’t want anyone but you even tho your more than 1,000 miles away I feel a connection but my past keeps getting in the way ! Soo after I realized this a couple of days ago I decided to text you and if you didn’t respond I would get over you but you did , YOU RESPONDED I was kind of hoping you didn’t because I really don’t want to hurt you again . This is the first time I’ve ever cared about a boys feelings ! That’s how I know I love you I just won’t tell you any of this ! But I really do love you !! Even with all of your imperfections I really do feel strongly for you !