Trapped

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I feel like I’m trapped in my own body/mind and when my thoughts go spiralling in my head I feel the urge to dig my nails into my skin and rip it off to let myself free.

I get panic attacks I cannot control, which then makes me feel useless!

Have you ever felt claustrophobic being stuck in a tiny space?

That’s how I feel like in my head/body.

I want to get out. I NEED to get out.

The smallest day to day jobs feel like chores I don’t have the energy to do but I can feel the weight of them on my shoulders. I feel like I’m going to collapse under that weight.

I feel like giving up...

It’s so hard to put in words what’s going on in your head when you don’t understand yourself.

I try to understand myself every day but every day it gets harder.

Most nights I go to bed I wish I’d never wake up.