I am SO BLESSED TO be having another baby. Like I can't believe God is blessing me AGAIN. But I can't help but feel a twinge of pain that number 2 is a girl again. I don't feel like I'm a good enough girl mom with my first and now I'm going to have 2 that I'm going to have to style and do their hair and buy ALL THE BOWS....I can't even right now. I suck at hair and styling myself. I can only imagine what they're going to look like when they get older. I feel like a disappointment. And then I have had SO MANY mom's of both/of boys tell me that I'm not really a mom until I have a boy bc girls are so much easier. Like I'm hurt about what they'll say to me when they find out this one is a girl too. I don't want people to give my husband pity bc we have all girls, I don't want the million questions on if we're going to try again someday for a boy. We don't try for either-just a happy healthy baby, but I still feel sad. I PRAYED so hard for this baby. The beginning of this pregnancy was so scary and difficult and I'm still dealing with random sickness at 20w. I don't want to feel bad about having a girl. I LOVE the name we have picked out, I know my oldest is going to be an amazing big sister and they will probably be bffs, I CAN'T wait to make them match...but I'm still sad. I don't want to be sad. I don't know the point of this...I guess send me positive second kid same gender vibes and people who bash on girl moms, gtfo.