Me and my bf have been together just over 2 years. he knows I don’t like him watching porn etc, but when I used to go to college and stay at my family’s house he would watch it secretly and even though I would say to him if he got horny we could have phone sex or I’d send him videos/ pictures or whatever he wanted. I would only be gone maybe once a week If that. Well he still picked porn over me and the things I would send him which clearly upset me. He told me the other day he likes watching porn because he likes something different when I asked what he meant he said it’s a different girl, a different body and face too. He even said he thinks they’re so hot etc. I just feel like I’m not enough for him sexually, and the girls he does look at are the complete opposite to me (big boobed) whereas I’m a B cup. I just don’t understand why he would pick porn over my photos and videos and even when we are together I always have to start sex or initiate it in some way. I try it with him all the time and tell him if he ever wants to try anything new then to let me know etc. Am I wrong for feeling upset about this? It’s just the fact he prefers a different girl sometimes face and body over me? It just makes me feel kind of ugly and that he’s bored of me and my body and face and that I’m really not enough for him as a person but as well as sexually or that he isn’t satisfied with me.