Venting

When my SO told me he was ready to start TTC baby#1 last year i was the happiest i had been in a while that same day i downloaded glow an a couple other ovulation traking apps so i could start traking my cycle ASAP. Fast forward a couple months into TTC im still not pregnant but knew it wouldnt happen right away but i was still excited .fast forward again to now almost a year later an im still not pregnant the excitement&happyness is gone and seeing anything baby related makes me want to go hide under a rock and cry my eyes out but belive it or not i still have hope , i just know that im going thru all of this so that when i finally do get my little bundle of joy i will be able to appreciate every second of pregnancy an motherhood💕