Single mommy venting session

I'm just so angry with everything at the moment. I love my daughter very much but the whole situation with my ex makes me so angry, sad, guilty and all these other emotions. I hate that he can't be there for his daughter and I didn't give him the chance to be but because of his actions towards me during our relationship (abuse) I refuse to put my daughter though that. But somedays I wonder if I'm doing the right thing...am I making the right choice? Am I depriving her of a father? Am I a good mother? Will she hate me when she gets older? Should I tell him about her? Would she forgive me? Will he forgive me? Can I forgive myself? I just can't shake these feelings and think about it every day...all I wanna do is cry. I've prayed and prayed for an answer from God but I have yet received one and am starting to lose faith. Sorry for the long post I just need to vent...