Am I the only one who hates my religion? I

I really don't want to be catholic any more my mom is really devout and conservative. This has caused many problems with me such as depression and wondering if I am worth anything in this life. Right now I am crying and wishing I was dead. Not even caring if there is a god that I have to worry to please. I really wish I could die and see who actually cares. I am sorry this post is so long and should probably stop but I just want to get this off my chest and want to know, am I even worth living my life. Please, I need to talk. 😭😭😭😢😩😫😢😥