If it wasn’t real, then why does it hurt so bad...

I’m finishing day 6 of no contact. I’m so embarrassed to say that I even had to go on YouTube to watch videos on how to deal, hence the term “no contact”. This is the first time I’ve ever had my heart broken like this.

He told me he needed some space after we went back and forth about whether we were “right” for each other. And we weren’t we aren’t... but I am so in love with him. I’ve cried every night, which is so unlike me. We have a lot of differences - how we grew up, how we currently live- but he made me so fucking happy.

I’m hoping this no contact thing makes him realize how much he misses me. He said he just needed space but I’m scared I’ll never hear from him again. I told him I wouldn’t wait for him to figure it out. I don’t know how much longer I can stay strong.

Please any help to get through this