Neglected as a wife

I’m tired of being neglected. I’m tired of not being care about. I have ADHD I was diagnosed as a child’s my husband mocks me and tells me I’m mental. And won’t pay for me to see a dr or get my meds . He hasn’t had sex with me in over a month and I wanna run away because I’m being “punished “ because “I’m not aloud to do and say what I want “ . and how it’s not his responsibility to pay for my meds and he should have to have a wife on medication..... he has high blood pressure so I’m not sure what he thinks he’s taking . Or if he’s the only one that aloud to take meds . I never really told anyone I had ADHD I was afraid of being mocked (I have been mocked for years I over it I’ve had ppl even treat me weird over it )but without the meds I feel like I move in slow motion & what I’m thinking and what my mouth saying is too different things. Not really bad but like I can’t express what I’m thinking idk if it makes sense or if I’m just bad at communicating... anyway he won’t have sex with me .. not that I want to after being told I’m being punished... but he don’t ever do nothing great for me he pays are bills and that’s it . He don’t do nothing nice for me . He don’t watch are so so I can get a break all I do is laundry, cook , clean bathroom and kitchen, make beds pick up toys . When he looks for clothes he dumps everything out so I lay out his clothes. I never stop doing ... and I’m not aloud to defend myself or my family. It’s not fare my life is not fare. I feel more like a made than a wife . Cause he clearly don’t like me .

He won’t pay for heath insurance he said” it’s not worth it because you still have to pay for a lot of bills “

He refused therapy...

Now he’s lucky if I’m interested 1st a week 1st every other week . But a month later tonight I decided I wanted to let some steam out of the pot and tired kissing him and said come on kiss me back being play full and he said “know one would” ... im hurt .