I'm just basically looking for some positive support. My husband and I are considering trying for our 2nd baby. He is ready to start. Myself on the other hand, I am a nervous wreck for various reasons. First I am having the second child guilt which I know is a common topic. My son just turned 2 and I'm afraid he will feel "replaced". I'm also afraid I will not love the second child like I love my son. He is very attached to me.

My other reasons are due to my previous pregnancy, labor and delivery. I was extremely sick during my 1st, all the way to the end. I was hardly able to function or get out of bed. This scares me because I currently am my sons primary caregiver and I cant imagine trying to care for him while feeling like that again. My labor and delivery experience was very frightening as well. I was really let down by my OBgyn. I had a good relationship with her in the beginning but during my labor she was very pushy and agitated with me. I kept telling her and the delivery nurse something was wrong (trying to push and nothing was happening). Neither of them listened and would scream and yell at me to push. As time went on and nothing was happening, she eventually realized that my son was stuck on the shoulder. (This was the worse pain I've ever felt)She used a vacuum to get him out causing me some serious tearing. He also had the cord around his neck and was sent to the NICU, where thankfully everything turned out ok. During all of this I was denied pain medication. She stitched me back up without anything. It took me several weeks to recover. I lost a lot of feeling down there and it took me weeks before I gained full control back of my bladder. I guess I'm still a little traumatized and not sure about having a second child even though I always thought of having 2.