Scared and nervous now

Went for my nst today at doctors office. Blood pressure was taken and it was in the 150's over 90's twice as well as running a temp. Urine dipstick came back negative for protein but midwife still wanted to do labs. My bp and temp were taken again and we're still elevated. I have been on blood pressure meds probably since 30ish weeks and now I am having problems again as well as starting to show more signs of preeclampsia. It may sound selfish but I feel like he would be healthier and safer on the outside already.