I'm giving up

watching both of my brother in laws having kids and trying for almost 2 years to no avail I'm giving up. I'm getting married in 10 months and I'm done trying until then. I'm deleting this app, I'm done tracking my ovulation, I'm done testing every month I notice something different or my period is a day late. I'm done with the heartache, tears, stress, and most of all being depressed about not having a little peanut while people around me, mostly the ones that shouldn't have kids (everyone deserves one, some just need more time to mature and grow up). Instead of spending time worrying about if my period is going to come or if we've conceived I'm going to spend that time planning my perfect wedding, working out, getting healthier, and enjoying my new job. After the wedding I will download Glow again, then and only then will I worry, stress, test, and cry and hopefully they'll be happy tears. until then I wish baby dust, and a happy holidays to everyone.