Feeling sad and depressed about in laws

I live with my in laws and the short time I’ve been living here I see them and I see how in love they still are and how nice the husband is to his wife. Then I go to my house and I see how much my parents hate each other and how abusive my dad I towards my mom. My whole life I grew up with parents who hated each other who were aggressive towards one another. I secretly wish I would have grew up with parents who loved each other like my in laws love each other.