Wednesday can’t come soon enough...

I’m currently 7w4d and I go for a second visit to the doctor on Wednesday. At 5w I started having some brown spotting which lasted on and off for over a week. Then at 6w3d I started bleeding and having mild cramps for about a day, mostly just when I went to the bathroom. That lasted for 5 days with the last 2 days being like a very light period and the cramps turned into dull aches for a day or so. And now I’m back to the occasional brown spotting. I had a doctors appointment last week at 6w6d where they did a brief abdominal ultrasound. Doc saw a gest. sac but didn’t really look hard enough for a baby. Since that appointment I’ve been wondering if there’s even been a baby this past week. I’ve cut myself off emotionally because I don’t want to go in on Wednesday and be crushed. But at the same time, I’m scared of going in for my appointment this week. I know there’s nothing I can do either way, I just don’t want to get my hopes up. This is such a frustrating time, I just want to know what’s happening in there. Please pray I get some answers this week. Good or bad, I can take it. I just don’t want to go another week without knowing.