So I have been absolutely baby crazy since I was 16. Young I know. Never had a child now I'm 20 been married since I was 18 been with the same man since I was 15. Over the last two years of marriage I've spent the majority of it baby crazy lmao pestering him about when we are going to have kids. And he has always said "I don't know" or "I'm just not ready yet" which I completely understand and respect. He had a rough time growing up and he practically raised his three younger brothers. His mom was a bipolar alcoholic. (she's much better now) his dad worked out of state to support them. so it was pretty much him and the boys. So I understand him not being ready.. this week my husband said " I want to have babies soon." In my mind I'm racing like

So many questions. Like when soon?? What do you mean babies?? we have enough fur babies. You mean Like human babies?? Like Rugrats?? Like me get pregnant babies??? WHAT DO YOU MEAN BABIES SOON!? those words have never been so close in a sentence before. And the reaction on my face was

BUT INTERNALLY!!!

So today I just can't stop thinking about it so I ask, "what do you mean babies Soon? Are we talking before the deployment/after? What do you want to do?" (My husband is in the military) he goes. Well if we get pregnant right before I leave I won't have to deal with the crazy 😂. And I can be home for the birth.

Me--

Like he's talking really fuckin Soon.

Then this mofo has the AUDACITY TO SAY.. "OR we can wait until after I get back and before my next rotation (2020) "

Me--

... okay now for the second half of this story... I've been watching my best friends kid (6month old) now she's the absolute reason I have baby fever. This little girl is the most easy going baby I've ever watched. SHE HARDLY EVER CRIES!! So my friends husband took her car to go out with his friends and she walked to the gym and I was watching their daughter. And she's fallen asleep and I need to take her back to her mom so I get my clothes on and wait for the very last second to get her coat on her so she doesn't wake up my husband to much... I can't find my shoes so I go ahead and put her coat on her and she's screaming cause she's mad I woke her up 😂 and I pray that she settles down while I can find my shoes. But she doesn't so she's just screaming her head off 😂 and my husband wakes up and calls out for me and I tell him I'm sorry just a second and then all of the sudden the baby stops crying and I hear my husband saying "really you're just forcing it out now there's no point in all that... You're fine no need to cry" as she has her entire hand wrapped around his finger literally.

Now he's ALWAYS been great with kids. When he plays with our nephew it's the sexiest thing ever. He went to the store bought a foam sword just so he could play with him. Like he's amazing.

So before I left I told him definitely before this deployment. Uhhh I'm so excited guys. This could actually be the start to our ttc. (Glow doesn't have an option for "I'm ready to ttc but my S/O isn't") 😂😂