A little venting. Any advice is appreciated

So I took one of the digital first response test 9 DPO this morning and it was a BFN When I was pregnant before I used the same test but with the lines and I also tested 9DPO that one was a BFP. My boyfriend and I got busy most of all my fertile days besides maybe one.

I have all the symptoms of pregnancy, fatigue, nausea, moodiness, sore breasts. I’m wondering if I’m just creating said symptoms because I want to be pregnant so bad or if i am really experiencing them.

Testing early has its pros but also it’s cons.

Do you think I should retest in a few days or just count this month out? I absolutely hate the waiting game. Or maybe use a different test?