⚠️Trigger Warning⚠️ The past year or so I haven't been myself. I lost all motivation to get out of bed in the morning for school. I always feel like everything is crumbling around me. I put up a barrier to hide my emotions because that's what I was taught to do. I present myself as tough, when I'm so damn fragile. I hate myself, I hate who I am. I hate my appearance, I hate my personality. I always try to help everyone else when I'm so fucked up. I feel like all my friends hate me, that I annoy them. Every single day I tell myself to just die. That everything will be better if I just kill myself. I've written and re-written the note hundreds of times. I've cut, burned l, nearly drowned myself. I can't stop. I don't feel like I deserve to live. I hate being alive. My parents aren't understanding, I've been in the closet for years. When my brother came out they kicked him out. I'm done with everything. I just want to die already.