Abortion at 11 weeks 4 days.

I had a suction abortion done yesterday afternoon, I was 11 weeks and 4 days. I already have two little boys, my oldest will be 2 in February and youngest will be 1 in March. I didn’t 100% want the abortion, part of me was happy because I felt in my heart I would have my little girl and I thought if all of my babies had a similar age gap that would be great. But my boyfriend sort of pressured me into it saying we couldn’t afford it and it would be too much stress on me physically and emotionally, which is true, and I know it was ultimately the right choice for us. but all I can do now is cry I feel awful and guilty. Is this normal? How do I get past it?