Just wanting some feedback as my loved ones insights just echo as I swing from one end of the emotional pendulum to the other

The short of it as I got swept off my feet

The father of my Nugget was sooooo dreamy just some short weeks prior

We connected over shared religious upbringing and visions on blending our families as I will have fosters and he has one biological son and one non biological with an ex/present shedevil, I mean gf

He positioned himself in my life like no other

Took care of things I never asked him to, looked out for me, treated me like a princess and even initiated meeting my friends, family and foster agency

That rush was too short lived when his ex/present she devil, I mean gf decided she wanted him back. If he is half the man he was to me I completely understand why. I remember the exact moment things changed between him & I. Nonetheless he played me and he decided he wanted to do right by his existing family. Sure it hurt in the moment, but it was such a short relationship that he pursued that I am over the sting. The issue is I am pregnant.

I have been excited about this Nugget since the evening I found out, but my joy keeps being sapped every time he makes clear or I remember that I will be raising this Nugget alone. I wish he approached the situation with a lot more sensitivity but he refuses to be sensitive, empathetic or change his position. The worst of it is he thinks I am as naive as the day he met me and will believe that he now all of sudden, knows that it would never work with her and wants to pick our new chapter back up, but only without Nugget. I hate that I actually feel bad for his predicament but worst that I think the best of him when he is clearly being manipulative and diabolical.

I didn’t wait till 30 to be a single mom and unwanted. I am a beautiful, intelligent, talented vibrant, social creature with a wonderful support system, but ultimately know I am going to have to look this Afro bush baby in the face and explain why it bares the name of someone who wants nothing to do with them. Deep down of course I wish he’d come around eventually for Nuggets sake yet know I deserve better then someone who would sell me dreams when it could have been fun and casual. Or maybe he really meant it even though tides quickly changed. Its just a really wild predicament and my Nugget suffers. I’ll be fine I just don’t understand how we shared what we shared even for that short time and he would just turn away from his own kin.

Almost makes me question if I can have that conversation with this Angel at all....

PS I know she a she devil from her attacking me as soon as I entered the picture. She never claimed that he and her where an item and working on things only that if Im going to be around I need to ensure he doesn’t choose me over his kids and some other ghetto nonsense that I didn’t feed bc I am above it. She is gonna freak if she finds out I’m carrying and I seriously don’t even want her to know bc I know she will threaten his relationship with his kids and is so lethal may even try to make me a mother of hood twins. I just cant with her vindictive manipulative self 🤦🏾‍♀️ at this point I see why they love one another 🤷🏾‍♀️