So I have a 18 month old son who is the apple of my eye but lately he has really been trying my patience. I feel like a horrible mother saying this but I sometimes really fight the urge not to hit him. I don't! Never have never will! I will discipline him but NOT out of anger! All that being said last night I had a dream that I lost it and smacked him across the face in front of my mom, I started crying a freaking out then woke up! I'm not sure why I'm posting this but the makes me feel like a awful person!  How do you deal with anger?