Temptation knocks at my door...

I’m 26 y/o woman, bisexual, in a relationship of 2.5 years with a man who has 3 baby mamas. Sometimes I wonder if I should keep waiting for him to have time for me between his 3 sons and his 2 jobs, then I think and feel that I knew his life before I accepted him into my love life and I feel guilty and selfish for wanting his time and love.

I also feel the need to be with a woman even though I desire him and love him very much. I still want to caress and kiss every part of a beautiful woman’s warm soul and body. We had talked about me having a girlfriend and he accepted at the beginning but there’s rules I proposed (that he accepted) at first. When it became real he started panicking about loosing me to someone else and we had a verbal discussion that ended up with my relationship with her. I miss hike every second and want to give him all my love, attention and support but he doesn’t have as much time for our relationship. I’ve been fantasizing about having a girlfriend without him knowing. I want to feel wanted again and I don’t know if is selfishness or the other part of me that I feel I’ve forgotten and put away for this that I don’t even know what it is now.