Long... but I NEED to vent!

Rachel

Long one... sorry ladies but i need to vent!!!

So. My amazingly beautiful baby girl is nearly 10 weeks Old. I've breastfed from the moment she was born and I'm talking she fed 7 times in the first 6 hours of her life... I DO NOT exaggerate when I say she is so friggen hungry! Most of the time I don't mind, she happy and healthy and thriving!

However. I'm still with her father, nearly 2 years now. And I do literally EVERYTHING! The feeding I get, but I have stock pilled breast milk for just in case and she takes a bottle too... yet I still no every feed, no offer of 'oh you get some sleep I'll do this feed'. Nothing. I wash all of her clothes, I bathe her every night without fail, I always change her nappy, I do the naps and cuddles when she's crying, I do ALL the housework, every single bit which is tough with a 7 year old too!

I feel like I'm a woman back in the 50's. He's so f***ing moody and complains he's tired and tried to have a go at me and quite honestly, I'm starting to feel lost! I have to wash my hair once a week over the bath tub with the shower head at like 5am while the baby is sleeping, I rarely get a hot meal, I don't actually think I've had longer than 15 mins to myself since she's been born. I'm starting to feel like I'm asking for too much for her father to have her while I have a soak in the tub, or a nap or a cup of tea in peace 😫😫

I've asked him and told him and all I get is attitude and huffing and puffing like a teenager! I feel so lost and drained and lonely 😭 I look at my daughter and I feel nothing but love and devotion, I just want a little help! 😭