How to be single

Okay sooo I’ve been single for one 2 years now. It’s honestly not an issue until I get these random days where I’m so needy & so thirsty for love & affection & just male attention in general.

I grew up with my dad working a lot. He still does & we don’t talk like that. My brothers are assholes & I don’t associate myself with them & my mom isn’t the one to run & hug you & say hi. Basically I’m the only one who’s love language is touch & affection.

I’m also finding myself hooking up with my guy friends for said affection. & I feel like if I had control of this issue then I wouldn’t have slept with them & stuff.

So I guess I’m just asking if I’m the only one with this issue & if not then how should I deal with it? I’ve looked into sex toys & stuff but I still live at home with my family & it’s a bit nerve wrecking that I have this thing in my room & I don’t know where to hide it so like do I even get one? Is it even helpful or not? Like help a sis out kaythanks 😩😩😩😩