Am I alone?

After a long day at work I lay in bed just wanting to burst out in tears. I am in my mid 20s and have been TTC for almost 3 years, and after today I’m almost convinced it will never happen.

My coworker found out she was pregnant (naturally) with her second baby in less than a year and a half! I’m happy for her but I can’t help but wonder will it ever be my time? 6 cycles of Femara, 1 IUI, and 2 miscarriages later I’m still not a mom. My husband and I have chosen to take a break from fertility treatments for now but it still takes over my brain. I fell like I have almost become obsessed with TTC. Am I the only one?

All day I have been trying to remind myself everything is in Gods will. But how many times can you say that when literally ever girlfriend I have/make gets pregnant so easily. My husband isn’t the consoling type nor does he understand how much this means to me. After our miscarriage his positivity on TTC has went downhill.

So here I lay finally reaching out. Am I the only one feeling so defeated in this journey? What keeps you ladies going and positive? How did you get your husbands on board after a loss?