I recently started working full time after being part time for 10 months. Today I officially asked to be back at part time due to doctors appointments and pain. I’m only losing 5 hours a week but it’s making me disappointed in myself.

I have ptsd and seizures along with new symptoms we don’t know the cause of. The pain is excruciating some days and I need a walker to get around and don’t go on long trips anymore. My family and boyfriend have told me to ask for a handicap tag when I go to rheumatology next week due to me not even being able to get through a trip to walmart. It’s disappointing me that this is happening all over again. That it’s a mystery illness that’s heavily affecting my whole life. Mentally and physically I’m drained. I thought I was done after a seizure diagnosis, the end all be all. That it was all I had to deal with and meds could help but no, just when I started to live normally and be a 22 year old woman with a great social life and home life it’s all fucked up. I don’t need sympathy or a “it’ll get better” because I know it will and I know I’ll be ok I always get through it but geez I’m just so pissed that this is happening! Sorry for the rant and sounding so “woe is me” like I said I’m just pissed in the current moment because of how it’s affecting work now. Scream gif added because it’s what I feel like doing right now. 😩