Today was my first hookup.

First things first im in highschool junior.

It was with a guy in my grade who acts so mature, by that I mean he has a car, is pretty rich, works for his dad's company, is smart, cool, respected, and nice.

I've known him for about a year and a half and he used to be this girls bf but they broke up (i know the girl but we're not bffs or friends just acquaintances) and he and I have recently gotten more into each other like "oh you got more hotter and we're both single"

Today I went over to his house and we just got at it. I had 1 hour of free time but when we got there it was 30 minutes of free time. We just went at it making out slowly and then he tries to take off my shirt. (Im a really REALLY hairy girl like all over my body so I was self conscious of what he would think) I tell him not yet that i wanted to take it slow so he respects that and then we continue. I take off his shirt and then i took off my shirt leaving my undershirt and then took that off later. Everytime we continued to makeout he tried to unzip my jeans but i paused at one point and said

"You do know that Im not gonna have sex with you right now" and he says yeah but he just wanted to touch me down there.

We continue at it again and i was out of breath so he asks if he could take of my bra, I say sure but that Im ashamed of my breats cuz you know self conscious and hairy on my boobs too.

I took it off and then he takes his pants off so then i start giving him a handjob, we go back to making out and he tries to take off my pants again so I just said fine but it only went down to my thighs, he starts touching me gently down there but it escalates quick and im just trying to get wet so it doesnt hurt. I tell him to go easy and more gentle cuz it hurt. He does so and we kept making out while he "fingered" me but really he was just stroking me. i took off my pants by that point. Later then i told him to stop so I go down and started giving him a blowjob. It was big and i couldnt go all the way or else I'd choke lol. He moans a couple of times and presses my head down farther. by this time i just tired and wanted water. he gave me some and then started going at it again. We make out at little more and i say that i have to go get picked up somewhere or else im in trouble, we make out a little more and he drives me to my stop. In the car we just talked about how it went and if there will be a next time. Ofcourse he apologized for not shaving that down there an going to hard on my vagina and if i felt like he pressured anything.

I have mixed feelings about what happened. I told 2 of my friends that we were meeting up but he and i decided not to tell anyone about what happened so i just told my friends that we got coffee and that was that.

When i got home i immediately showered and just tried to wash "it" away. I dont regret what happened but now im nervous about "next time" cuz he wants to eat me out but idk how to shave down there or what to expect or anything at all.

So here's my questions:

Should I continue things with him

Is he worth it

Do you think someone might find out at school

What should I expect next time

What is our relationship becoming

Is this friend w benefits

How do i shave down there

Should i still be self conscious about my hairy body

And anything else you ladies want to say

(No i didnt tell my parents anything about it cuz theyre strict has heck and girls just wanna have fun 🤷‍♀️) (responsibly ofc)

But for real

Let's Glow!

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