Lately I've just been feeling of. It's hard to describe. I started high school this year and there were a few misunderstandings and even though I talked about them and apologized where necessary I feel like others think I'm mean. People who I know from last year in elementary school also said things about me. I've always been nice to everyone but they think I'm annoying and weird. I've made a few friends but only A few close friends. I'm very excitable loud and energetic but people call me annoying and obnoxious. I feel like I'm the person who comes up to others and makes them think "ugh why is this girl talking to me. She's so annoying and weird I hate her so much." I feel like when others hyper loud people make jokes the people around them laugh and they become friends. But when I do that I get weird looks and fake laughs. I care about self love, mental health, eating healthy, and trying new things. But my brother thinks I'm weird because of this. When I'm upset he tells me to stop being depressed and shut up. Once he saw me writing in the community and he said " why are you talking to random people. You're so depressed and weird. This is why no one likes you. " I have a few friends who like me for me. But when I'm myself nobody likes me and when I try to be less annoying they think I'm weird. I feel like I don't know who I am or who I want to be. I don't like trying to be like some one I'm not in an attempt to be liked. But I hate my natural personality. I feel so alienated from others. Sorry that was long. I just needed to get that off of my chest.