I’m not sure why. I hate the job, some people treat me like shit, and I’m not sure if I’ll go back. I just wanted my husband to see how strong I was and make it to the end. I feel as though I let him down.

On Friday I struggled so much being on my feet all day that by the end of the shift I could barely walk it was like my legs were going to collapse. I called my husband in tears thinking I wasn’t going to make it to my car to get home. Also my coworker pretty much did all my work for me that night and that wasn’t fair.

I was going to start maternity leave at 35 weeks but I’m starting now at 33 weeks. I guess 2 weeks early isn’t that much of a difference.