In October of 2017 I found out I was pregnant (it was a huge surprise for my husband and I) and then I miscarried three days later. it started with light bleeding followed by a trip to the ER where they told me my hcg was dropping. It was an emotional roller coaster and really hard on me. We decided that we really wanted to start having kids, but had a cruise booked in May so we decided to start trying right when we got back from that trip.

Fast forward to May, we went on the cruise and I’m pretty sure I conceived on that trip even though we officially hadn’t started trying to conceive yet. We both really struggled with knowing I was pregnant even though it was ultimately what we wanted. We both had trouble talking about it or even grasping the reality of it because we were so afraid to be excited for something that could be ripped away again. A few days after we found out the bleeding began again and things just got worse.

On June 8th I miscarried again. Emotionally I couldn’t even process and carried on in a daze for weeks or even months. Luckily our relationship stayed strong through it all. This time we talked about it and decided we would give ourselves time to heal and then try one more time before looking into other options.

Come October of this year I was supposed to get my period on a Monday, but I just had a really strong feeling. On Wednesday I finally gave in and took a test and it was positive. This time I decided to celebrate this baby’s life for no matter how long he/she lived inside me or out in the world. I had no implantation bleeding (I did with the two previous pregnancies) and have not spotted a single drop of blood since my period in September.

I’ve had constant morning (and afternoon and nighttime) sickness and headaches to constantly confirm that my little baby is doing good in there. We’ve had 3 ultrasounds and the heartbeat has been so strong in all of them and my sweet angel was moving around so much ❤️❤️❤️

On Christmas Day I’ll be 14 weeks. I never thought that I’d make it so far and now I’m starting to really believe that my husband and I are going to get our little baby here 🥰