Hey yall! ♡

My husband and I have been TTC for, technically, about 7 months or so. I say technically because I was on birth control for a long time, and it took a while for my body to regulate. Overall, we've been wanting a child for over a year. Anyway, I have some health issues (none related to fertility thank the lord), so I deal with a lot of pre-pregnancy symptoms, ie. severe nausea, hot flashes, headaches, fatigue, and mood swings. Every month though, I never get those 2 pink lines we all long for. 😞 It's gotten pretty disappointing, in all honesty. I was pretty depressed for a while, so I stopped testing monthly, I stopped logging anything other than my period on this app, I stopped trying basically.

In the past 2-3 months though, I've gotten back in the swing of things. I've paid attention to my ovulation dates, and have been doing the deed accordingly. Today, AF is 2 days late. 🤞🏻 I'm trying to stay positive, and I've been praying that my body isn't playing a trick on me. It's just, I continue to think about previous months, and I feel like AF is just waiting for me to let my guard down. 😞 Around 7 DPO, I did have a little bright pink in my CM that could have been spotting, accompanied with cramping at the time, but it wasn't enough for me to be convinced it was implantation bleeding. I've also had tender breasts, I'm more gassy than usual, and I take more bathroom trips it seems like, but I also know those are PMS symptoms. I'm trying to wait to test until Friday because I'll be 1 week late, and to just overall not get my heart broken again from jumping the gun on my excitement.

I hate bringing my issues to you all, but my husband and I haven't told anyone that we're TTC because we want it to be an all out suprise. It makes it hard when you get in your feelings like this, but you have no one to turn to for positivity. My husband is a great supporter, don't get me wrong, but yall know that sometimes you just need females who can actually understand what you're going through.

Thanks for listening. ♡