Not too long ago, I was hanging out with a guy who forced me to give him oral. I planned on sex with him, but this one specific thing I refused and he made me. After that, I felt pretty numb for everything else(we ended up having sex). And now I feel the same if I go down on a guy before sex and it’s killing me. I see a therapist for other things, but I just don’t feel ready to share this yet. It’s just fueling some of my other mental health stuff, and I just wonder if I should stop seeing my therapist all together until I gain the courage to speak up or what... but I just don’t know.