The are no words to describe the endless amount of love that I have for you. You have helped me when I was down, showed me that there are better things to live for and always loved me unconditionally, even when my parents didn’t want to. You relived me from the sleepless nights and sorrowful days for a week. But a week has passed and I’m as low as ever. I feel worse. Even though I love you and I know you’re watching over me and protecting me, I feel like you aren’t truly hearing my call for help, and understanding the things I’m going through. Dear God, I don’t want to live anymore, I just can’t. The pain is too bad, it’s taking over my whole body. The other day my teacher told my class that God gives each and everyone of us crosses that we have to carry. The crosses represent how hard our life is and everything that goes on within our life’s. My teacher explained that some people’s crosses are heavier than others....why do I feel like my cross is as big as the ocean? I know the pain that I continuously feel day and night is no where in comparison to the pain that you once felt. But it’s still too much for me to handle.

Dear god, please answer my prayers and slay the demons in my life, with them I can’t bare to stay alive another night.