So my husband introduced me to christianity in December of 2016 well i loved it and in joyed going to church and knowing more about god well in june of 2017 we started trying to convince and everything was perfect we had faith and we had fallen pregnant really fast only 3 months trying and everything seemed to be perfect till November 2017 is when my life started going downhill i miscarriage November 7 and was really depressed but i started to gain faith then in July i got diagnosed with pcos and it been 18 months ttc very long time i feel its been one thing over another its been a month since i stop going to church i feel why me i have so many questions in my head its hard i am mad disappointed. I love my husband and my husband is a really faithful person and loves god and talks to me to be faithful and to start going to church but i have soo much anger why do women who abuse and hate their own kids gets to have them and i that want to be a mother more than anything in this life and that loves kids cant 😢