So it has been a month since me and my ex gave been broken up. We dated for 5 years and not having him in my life is killing me. Towards the end we had a toxic relationship. He sexually assaulted me in my sleep and when confronted he said he thought i would like it. News flash no means no when im asleep too. So anyways my brain likes to mess me up and think about the times he wasnt an asshole. He was a total jerk to me towards the end. He even ruined out vacation by staying out till 3am with another girl. So even reminding myself of the bad why do i want to talk to him? I feel like it is because he is acting unphased. Like he never cared that I broke up with him. Like he was happy to rid me or something